I thought I would share this it came in an e-mail from a good friend of mine hope you enjoy it

A slight improvement?

Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. Phil. 2:3–4

Paul is so urgent in his appeal: “Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit”. But aren’t we born selfish? And if so, can we do anything about it? Can we get our eyes off of self? Or, better asked, can we get the little self out of our eyes? According to Scripture, we can.

Therefore if there is any encouragement in Christ, if there is any consolation of love, if there is any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and compassion, make my joy complete by being of the same mind. Phil. 2:1–2

Paul’s sarcasm is thinly veiled. Is there any encouragement? Any consolation? Any fellowship? Then smile!

What’s the cure for selfishness?

Get your self out of your eye by getting your eye off your self. Quit staring at that little self, and focus on your great Savior.

A friend who is an Episcopalian minister explains the reason he closes his prayers with the sign of the cross. “The touching of my forehead and chest makes a capital ‘I.’ The gesture of touching first one shoulder, then the other, cuts the ‘I’ in half.”

Isn’t that a work of the Cross? A smaller “I” and a greater Christ? Don’t focus on yourself; focus on all that you have in Christ. Focus on the encouragement in Christ, the consolation of Christ, the love of Christ, the fellowship of the Spirit, the affection and compassion of heaven.

If Christ becomes our focus, we won’t be like the physician in Arkansas. He misdiagnosed the patient. He declared the woman to be dead. The family was informed, and the husband was grief-stricken. Imagine the surprise of the nurse when she discovered that the woman was alive! “You better tell the family,” she urged the doctor.

The embarrassed physician phoned the husband and said, “I need to talk to you about the condition of your wife.” “The condition of my wife?” he asked. “She’s dead.” The doctor’s pride only allowed him to concede, “Well, she has seen a slight improvement.”

Slight improvement? Talk about an understatement! Lazarus is walking out of the tomb, and he calls that a “slight improvement”?

He was so concerned about his image that he missed an opportunity to celebrate. We laugh, but don’t we do the same? We’ve gone from cremation to celebration. We deserve a lava bath, but we’ve been given a pool of grace.

Yet to look at our faces you’d think our circumstances had made only a “slight improvement.” “How’s life?” someone asks. And we who’ve been resurrected from the dead say, “Well, things could be better.” Or “Couldn’t get a parking place.” Or “My parents won’t let me move to Hawaii.” Or “People won’t leave me alone so I can finish my sermon on selfishness.”

Honestly. We worry about acid rain in silver linings. Do you think Paul might like to have a word with us? Are you so focused on what you don’t have that you are blind to what you do? Have you received any encouragement? Any fellowship? Any consolation? Then don’t you have reason for joy?

Come. Come thirsty. Drink deeply from God’s goodness. You have a ticket to heaven no thief can take,

an eternal home no divorce can break. Every sin of your life has been cast to the sea Every mistake you’ve made is nailed to the tree. You’re blood-bought and heaven-made. A child of God—forever saved. So be grateful, joyful—for isn’t it true? What you don’t have is much less than what you do.

Hello L.J Viewers,

well I took the day off work… due to the fact that I came home sick from work yesterday… threw up in the bosses office… not a pretty site… I tell ya something is going around the office… not a good thing…. especially since my co-worker took two days off. So what can I say….

Did tho get a chance to help mom with some stuff… but did not have any energy to do much at all it is 7:29 now and I just feel like ****….. oh well what can you do….. Gonna phone my friend back in 10 minutes and work on some stuff for my radio show…

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Its Amazing!,

Yes Its Amazing to what happens when you cannot sleep. There are so many reasons for not being able to sleep I mean you could have insomnia, you could have back issues, stress or even chronic pain issues. Me I have it all and when I cannot sleep I find myself watching the same shows and movies that I have seen over and over again to avoid those pesky infomercials and repeats that plague the moder entertainment world. I surf Facebook and click on link after link looking at the same photos, hoping to see something that I have not seen or remember and finally click over to YouTube. I even just sit in my favorite chair with my heating pad on just hoping that my back pain goes away the Advil or Tylenol will kick in and I will be able to sleep. Tonight is not that night

Tonight I went to bed and within the hour pain hit so I got up did some of that crazy stuff I do and then tried to go back to be in the hour again with the pain plus a pesky infection in my throat that will not go away so I kept caughing so I got up again and here I sit having going through facebook, surfed YouTube, looked at my own website and wondered to myself why am I watching “You Got Mail” Could it be it is based on an old movie “Shop Around The Corner” or is it because I love the fact that it is about an e-mail (not a good e-mail provider but email) conversation between two people who like each other but in the real world not cyber they are mortally hate each other  and don’t know it, who knows

I just know that tonight I feel like **** and I am over tired and in pain and really just cannot sleep. I have been working on this computer for the last 4 hours watching this movie and ready to cry, heating pad don’t work, cannot find the files I need to edit for tomorrow and am still drinking gallons and gallons or water.  I really thought I would get some sleep before heading to church but that is not the case. Guess I will be working on no sleep again.

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Hello,

As I always start my blogs off “It Has Been Some Time Since I Wrote” and well yes I have been sharing things from around the internet and what is going on with the young adult department I volunteer in but it came to mind today something profound. I am writing this entry as I watch Julie and Julia

I was working on organizing all of my video files.. making sure none were missing and that everything was in place and that all of the tags for the videos were done and my Itunes was in complete order, It came to me.. I acomplished a goal today I acutally got something done that was important to me.

You see I really want to become a Pastor and over seer of the old sanctuary at my church and as I was working on my goal of getting a Media computer done I realized that to Win the Race we must accomplish the small stuff in life and the big stuff will take care of its self. I realized that although getting the stuff done that I wanted would help to make this goal work. This will help accomplish the big goal.

I am learning all that I can about media, sound and church media that I can and this is just a small part of taking care of the bigger goal, becoming that Media Pastor that I have wanted to be. But what I accomplished today took care of that goal and the goal of having all of my media files (avi, mp4, mp3, m4r etc..) all in order and done, Thus giving me the most complete library of media that I have ever had in my life.

Now I said that I was watching Julie and Julia (on TMN OD) and in this movie she, Julie takes on cooking all of Julia Childs resopies and give herself a time line of one year all the while blogging (not using WordPress LOL) all of her adventures along the way. But she started with a small goal of setting up the blog and writing down what she wanted to accomplish and in the end got all the recipies cooked and done

I guess in a way I am doing the same blogging my journey to becoming who I want to be and blogging all about it. But her journey took a year mine has been almost 10 years. It was a journey of discovery of who I was it was a journey of health and its trials it was a journey of failed relationships and in the end about meeting the best mentor in the world.

Now as I look back on it I realize that any dream can be accomplish. I am serving at my church, dating the most incredible women in the world.

You see you can accomplish your dreams no matter what they are or what people say about them.You can accomplish anything when you put your mind to it. But there will be trials in the way I have disabilities that I don’t let stop me. I had people tell me that I am doing something wrong or I don’t belong where I am. I have had to battle strongholds, sin, money issues etc.. but keep the faith and keep going for it. You will in the end accomplish your dream.

But Always Remember This Proverbs 12:24

NCV: Hard workers will become leaders,but those who are lazy will be slaves.
NLT: Work hard and become a leader;be lazy and become a slave.

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This is a continuation of My Computer Crash HEEEEELP! (Part 1)

Hello,

In the last article I explain that my Apple MacBook had crashed and that after calling Apple we determined that the hard drive was dead. So what do we do now? Lets look at one scenarios and in part 3 cover the second one.

1. I have another computer in the house so I should be okay

So you have another computer in the house congrats! I know it is not the same and you have lost all your settings and may have had to go from MAC to Windows (XP, Vista, 7) but it is something. I had to go from Apple OS X Leopard to Microsoft Windows XP on My HP Desktop PC this was not a big stretch for me as my church uses both Mac and PC with a Windows 2000 Server

I was very thankful for a backup computer as I do a lot of work for my church and am able to get the work done at home when I am not feeling well. I was more thankful that all my my external hard drives were NTFS Formated (Mac File System). You see I left them that way so we could use them on any computer in the church and I found a program that would allow me to read and write to NTFS drives on a Mac by Paragon Software Group so all of this saved my bacon and the fact that I only lost close to 2 gigs was amazing as I have so much in the way of Audio and Video files.

Now it was just a matter of getting used to all of those pesky Windows commands and keyboard short cuts again. You see the apple keyboard is a bit different from the Windows/PC keyboard, Macs to me makes so much more sense.  Then the next question do I have all the programs I need to be able to read all my files? I had to do a checklist in my head

1. Microsoft Office –> Check
2. Imovie –> Crap Mac Only
3. Adobe Reader so I can start 31 Days to a Better Blog –> Check
4. VLC & Itunes With Quick Time –> Check
5. Audacity and Shuangs Audio Joiner so I can do the sermons –> Check

So I was okay! I knew that there would be more down the road but in the mean time this would work.

So I was all set I just now had to get my MacBook fixed. This took some work. First off to Best Buy where they are an official retailer for Mac in Durham. They said the same thing Apple said, dead hard drive. They told me 100 – 140 to get the drive and put it in. More if I wanted them to install the OS X

Now, what do I do? Look around for more prices or stick with Best Buy? Well unbeknown to me there was a small computer shop that opened up by my house now like all small mom and pop shops you assume that they only work in PC but I decided to ask anyway and see what they said and well they quoted me 100 – 144 to get the hard drive fixed and installed. Me I was just shocked that someone new something about macs other then the big stores and they are only a 5 min walk from my apartment.

So now we know the problem.. My Hard Drive is DEAD it is DOC (Dead on Crash) so now we have to get it fixed. Now it is just a matter of where and for what kind of money or do I invest in a new Mac? To Be Continued!

In part 3 of this article we will look into what to do if you don’t have another computer in the house or access to one.

Hello,

Over Two Weeks Ago I had the pleasure of watching my Apple MacBook go boom! Yes, it crashed but  as I have been writing you have to make sure all of that data is backed up. Well thank the Lord I have two portable (500 gig & 1 TB) hard drives and a HP desktop PC that saved by bacon! But what did I loose well for those of you who must know here it is

1. My Documents Folder minus one sub-folder which is on the church server
2. Some downloaded videos
3. A New Program installer that I just got that day
4. Some photos I used in a home movie but they are all backed up or on Facebook
5. My Backgrounds, really not a big deal they can be found again on the net

so all in all about 2 gigs worth out of a 120 gig hard drive.

So what do you do now? Well as a guy who knows a little about computers (I don’t ever claim to be an expert) I did what all good people do but first lets look at the back story of what happend

I was at church on my usual Thursday afternoon at Durham House of Prayer (DHOP) I was in the middle of some downloads, converting avi files to mp4 and working on editing a sermon when all of a sudden my MacBook froze so like all good users I held down the power button and it shut off. Well that would be the last time I ever got it up and running again.

So I called my Mac expert and good friend Ron and he told me what to do. Well that did not work worth any thing. What he told me to do what hold down the C key and it would boot off the factory CD and that would boot the diagnostic program that would help me get the hard drive running. Well the CD Rom spit out the CD and came up with a folder that had a question mark on it. Well that was the end of that.

So I left early from DHOP not feeling well and when I got home lied on my bed and called Apple. Well after some chatting and diagnostics we determined that the Hard Drive was dead. I assumed this when all you could hear is a tick tick tick when it booted.

So in the next article I will explain in two different ways how to correct and fix this problem.

I just found this interesting article from Tech Republic.com on Fake Anti-Virus Software, What You Need To Know. I found this very interesting as I was once the same person that got attacked by a virus scanner that I thought was legit because it said MS AV but in the end almost lost 20+ gigs of data and had to re-do my desktop PC take a listen to this article here and don’t and up in the same place that I ended up.

Hello,

It has not been that long since I posted but there has been a lot on my mind. I have been crazy busy with stuff at the church and I have been crazy busy with the new Website for the Young Adults.. But there have been some things in my personal life that I am not proud of.

I don’t know what it is but it seems to me like I am living a double life. In my house I struggle with stuff that I feel like I cannot over come. Then at church it seems like everything is fine. Now I live alone and that should be no excuse but living alone can get you into trouble that you normally would not get into if you lived with someone or with your parents. But I am at a point were I feel like giving up and saying well i’ll never overcome this issue. I am ready to throw in the towel and stop fighting. I am ready to say this is who I am and just go on living my life. I am tired of Fighting it. Now you may be asking yourself what is it that you are fighting.. well only for those of you who know what it is this will make sense.. But I will say it again. I just cannot fight it any more. I AM DONE!

I know that when the temptation comes that is not the sin.. it is falling for the temptation that is the sin. But it is hard to fight the temptation when you are trying to not do the sin. I find that when we are trying to do what the Lord asks of us, that it is always when we get tempted the most. I in the last little while have been tempted almost daily and for the most part have not been able to beat this down. Like my mentor says repent for the sin and move forward.. but how many times can we commit the same sin and repent till God goes enough already! I am at that point.. when is enough enough when it is time to say no more.. when it is time to just say NO MORE!

I don’t know with this.. I just don’t know anymore, I can say it and have alot in this entry that I am tired of fighting it! Well this is just me letting off some steam

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Hello,

It has been a while since I really did any serious bible studies and really got back in to a so-called routine with my prayer time and I decided this morning to put on my Word of Promise audio bible and decided to listen to Proverbs, wow did I forget how much wisdom is really in this chapter. Boy did I start to realize some of the things I have been doing that needed change.

You once and a while we have to sit back and really check ourselves and check weather or not we are in the place that we are suppose to be. I know many people that would say that this is not necessary but this is very necessary. I always say if you don’t like the fruit check the tree (tree meaning you). If you really don’t like the way people treat you or the way things are turning out check yourself. Check weather you are doing or saying the right things.

I know myself I have many things that I need to work on. I know that I will never be finished in my life time checking myself. I know that I will never be perfect but a person who is trying to change is one you want to keep in your life.

Lately I have heard many preachers speak on this very topic and they all teach the same thing. Some are teaching it on checking your heart and some are teaching it from the point of Character but they all get down to the same point. It is checking ourselves and making sure that we change what we don’t like in our lives.

My Dad always said to me “You Can Change Yourself, But You Cannot Change Others” so take time and work on you and you might be surprised what you see.

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