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An Update
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Here I am sitting at the church listing to Lorna play after just having been done at the Dr’s office and really just thinking to myself.. what an amazing 4 weeks I have never been more excited about life then in a long long time. I recently started dating the most amazing women in the world. I never thought that I would ever date her in a million years. We met when we were 10 and well from time to time we lost track of each other and in the last few months have been connecting.
When I love about her most is how she is so independent.. how she takes charge of what she wants and goes for it. When she knows what she wants there is no stopping her. She is so amazing a person inside and out.. We talk about everything.. there is almost nothing that I don’t tell her. Late night chats on the phone.. time apart so I can do my church thing and then we catch up. She is so supportive of what I do here at the church. She is all around the perfect women (at least in my eyes)
What else is been going on.. well not much… I am turning 31 on Saturday and going from there. I am going to be visiting with a friend of mine who is also having a birthday on the same day. So it should be an exciting weekend. This weekend is also fathers day and my mothers birthday all in the same day.. How fun is that. So this should be a very exciting week.
As for the church we just finished up the online store and its products. take a look at www.theembassyofgod.com/store/ Pastor Matt and Ron Prestage did an awesome job on the covers for the cds and boxes and I worked hard on getting the sermons in order and edited for sale. We together were as Ron said a machine in getting the website done and running. WordPress is the most awesome tool in the world for this stuff. We are going to unveil it to the church this Sunday
What else has been going on.. well just doing my stuff for my self.. I am working on getting all of my movies and tv shows on to my portable hard drive and into my Itunes so that I can watch them on the computer at anytime I want.. I have my MacBook setup to run off the TV . I can in my Itunes watch anything I want from movies to tv to listing to music It Rocks! Plus I am still doing all of the church stuff that I normally do.
Really working hard at the church these days.. The store took up most of our time.. but I am still doing sound and media work.. Joined the intercessor team for the Worship team and working hard on my proverbs study. My gal is now doing it along side me. She is always challenging me to go higher in the things of the Lord and I love her for that. She wants to make sure that we have put God first before anything else in our relationship and that has always been my primary goal with this relationship is to put him first. She is awesome!
Not much more then that is going on. I really don’t have much to say. So I will close for now.
Till Next Entry
Dear God
Posted by: | CommentsDear God,
Yes its me again, I sure you have other things to do then read a letter from a blogger who would at time rather watch Touched By An Angel then sit down and pray or even read your word but I just wanted to sit down and tell you some things that were going on in my life. I am sure you know this already but I hope you will read this.
This week has been a good week for me father I only let my strong holds get the best of me once. But the rest of the week has not been so good. I have been working on a disc with Lorna from Durham House of Prayer and I have been listing to my friend who you took home this month. I always wondered why you took him home but I know he is up there with you and is safe but.. can you make sure he gets a copy of this. Let him know I miss him and that things have not been the same without him. I needed someone to talk to this week and no one was around to set me straight and just when I was at my worst and about to give up on things Pastor Matt called.
Father, you know I have been working on a website for the kids ministries and well I thought this would go over with the web department but it did not. Father I feel like I am stepping on toes but after a good talk with a friend I know that I am doing right and thanks to my chat with him I feel better and I know that I am using the giftings that you gave me to take the gospel to the world. Father I am amazed at the talents you gave and taught me thought our worship leader to get the site done for Embassy JR & SR High. I never thought that Pastor Randy would never like it and would you believe it he loved it and now instead of having JR & SR High split into two websites we now have one! I am so proud of myself but I could not have done it without the talents you gave me. I hope to use these talents to get the Kids Ministry going as well. But enough about that.
My family life is going well. My mother is still working hard at finding an apartment for herself and me. My sister is still coming over quite often and I get to see Ivy quite a bit.. I just love little Ivy something about her just draws me to he. She has a lot of poential and she will do something great with her life. I hope that she never makes the same mistakes that me and her mother did. Lilly amazes me she is so smart, and she listens and knows everthing that is going on in the family. She is growing up so fast can you believe next month she will be four years old my how time flys. Dad is doing well his burner went on the frits this week and he has not been able to finish is dvds I wish I could give him the money, I wish I could give mom and dad all the money they need to take a holiday and what they gave up for oma in the last few months.
Oma is in a weird state these days mom and dad had to tell her that she is in a nursing home. That did not go over well at all. She was in such a bad state the other day and was misruable and she would not listen to anything I had to say. I wish that she would understand that mom and dad nor I can do it any more that they need to have a life too. I think Oma is a perfect place, plenty of care, good food, good people.. well if she would talk to them and most of all fine nurses and drs. I love her to death and if I had to this summer I would take care of her. I did not really want to but I would do anything to help out this family even if I had to give up my summer that would be fine.
Things at the church could never be better I am my most happiest when I am there. The people I work with are amazing, I am so excited to be working there and I feel it it a honour to be asked to work with Pastor Matt, there is no better person to be working with then him. I cannot get over some of the stuff that he has taught me over the years. Years that is funny do you believe it is 3 years this month that I have been at this church and 3 years in September that I have been surving in the Creative Arts Department and now look I have some of the best people to ever have the pleasure of working with.
Pastor Derek spoke an amazing message that I had the pleasure of editing in a long time. It has been a long while since we heard a good message like that from Pastor Derek in a long long time. I was so jellious when he left for Kiev and got to spend a month with Pastor Sunday that would be such an honour to spend a month following and learning from my mentor like that. I always wished I had half the ministry that even Pastor Matt or Derek have but I realized in the last little while that this was your destiny for them. I have my own destiny and my own ministry that you will make perfect. I just don’t know if I am worthy of it.
Father God, I am feeling really down about myself in the last little while. I am really not happy with myself these days. I don’t think I can fight my strong holds any more I think it has gotten the best of me. I think some days I don’t have it in me. I want to fight it but it is so hard and with my disablilties and lack of money and even my lack of physical strength. I just wonder who I really am. Who you want me to be. I know that I have fullfilled one part of the destiny you have for me but… what is the rest of it? What is the next step? What do you want with me now? I am I worthy of the position that you have given me? What am I really doing? Each week I come in and hide in the back with the best people I have ever worked with. But I cannot get over how much you have given me.
Father I am scared I am afraid of the next step. I don’t know if I can do it. It is 1:00 am and I have not slept yet. I have been watching Touched By An Angel since 10:30 and loving it but really what is next? Why is it that with out my meds I cannot sleep and with my meds I sleep to much? I want to get up again at 5:00 am and rest in your presence and chat with you. I love our two hours each moring that we can get up and meet you, me and Ihop on God TV. Father forgive me for not making the time. Forgive me for not being the man that you called me to be. Let me be the best man I could ever be. Let me be the best example of a Man of God that I am called to. Let me be a living example for Lilly and Ivy and even be the best man I can be.
Father I know I am rambling as most of my prayer get but father let me ask you this… Please take care of my family expcially Oma and bless mom for all that she has and will do for this family. Bless Pastor Matt for all that he does in my life. As I close this letter thank you for being there for me. Thank you for letting me serve the kingdom and thank you for all that you have done.
With All my Heart & Love
Matthew
Reflections
Posted by: | CommentsHello,
It has been quite a year and for me my year is coming to a close sooner then for most as some of the places where I volunteer and serve are coming to a close for the Christmas (not holiday) season. I have had an amazing year serving at embassy | this generation and Durham House of Prayer . Two of the best extended families a guy could ever have. I have met so many interesting people and so many new things this year that I have to say amazed me.
This year I learned what it is to serve and what it is to lead. Leading for me has not been a strong point. I tend to want to work alone and do things my way and my way only. As my mentor and good friends will tell you I have really improved this year (or so I think) But I think what I got most out of serving this year was the new friendships that started to form. As much as I am protective in the areas that I serve and how sometimes my emotions come out of me more then I would like. I am glad that my friends old and new understand and accept me for who I am.
I have to say that serving with Durham House of Prayer was a new adventure, one that I had prayed for and ask God to make away for me to serve them in the gifts that he has given me. But he did so much more then that. He taught me grace, humility, patients, and most of all how to serve in an area that works mostly on teams then I am used to (again I tend to work best alone).
I am also empressed with the way Embassy Worship has come together we are building such an exciting team. Team Embassy Worship & Team This Generation have moved from being this is Pastor Matt’s team and Batirai’s team to being one team committed to the same goal. It was also awesome to see the teams sharing singers, instrumentalists and creative arts people, this shows me (like a friend said) that we are really moving into shift from one person doing all the work to teams sharing and helping the body of Christ in the same goal of saving the lost and training them up.
I Look so forward to what 2009 will have for the church and the areas in which me and the people I work with serve. I pray that God will give us more Ideas and the ideas that have not come out of us will transform the way we do things in and out side of the church.
Be Blessed!
